I just need a vacation.

You know what really makes me angry...its how people change. Now, i have never had an issue with this before. When people used to say it id be like nooo what are you talking about? people dont really change. i think your nuts. But after this year...im starting to rethink everything. You have this really great kid who is so nice to you....then sometimes he treats you badly and you let him away with it but then you are like wait...why did i do that? if it was anyone else...i would be so mad. then you have this other awesome kid...who is just basically awesome...but then people make way to much of him and you are like omg everyone shut up...then you start to get annoyed with the person because they change and conform to their new "image" and you are like wow....please stop changing...go back to the person you were...because that is the person who was awesome to know. Then you have the best friends who decide to break your heart and leave you out of their lives. They promise they will never do it but they do. It makes you think back to the way your life used to be and how happy you all used to be together and then all of a sudden people start to pull away from the group. I understand you have to have a certain level of patience because it cant always be just four people all the time...but it comes to a certain time that when they are ignoring you and blatantly leaving you out of things...you have to say something and you have to be prepared almost for that person to not want your friendship anymore but you need to keep your dignity and not be walked all over. Its a terrible thing to say but sometimes the people you rely on the most, let you down. and it sucks....dont ever let someone become your priority when you are only an option for them...and lately thats the way i have been feeling...all the time...its terrible and i wish people would understand how i felt. Just get me out of this frigen country.

Mr. Nilsen

Hahaha, so i decided to do a blog dedicated to you mr.nilsen(and your class)!!! I figured it would be cool for you to be reading a bunch of blogs and then come across one about you!!! How exciting!!! Ok, so first of all, let me clear up the fact that the other day when shannon and i were laughing...its only because your so darn funny...hahaha we love it....and the fact that we laugh way to hard at things that arent that funny....so it just all adds together. We would never laugh AT you...:-) So, i have pretty much come to the conclusion that you're awesome...and that next year is going to be a lot of fun...even if i am only the person who runs to get coffee for people who don't drink it. Can we watch nacho libre next year too?? or is it like hardcore work next year? Im not too sure what to expect to be honest. Let me think...what was my favorite part of this year....? Maybe it was watching nacho libre....and rewinding all the funny parts 100o times....that was good. OR maybe it was the dicussion we has about hitch hikers......! That was interesting...Or, the time when we watched TRON....NOT...worst movie in the world...you have good tastes in movies too...what possessed you to pick that movie? NO, its decided....best part was when you would take out a random bag of chips and pull out the salsa and just start eating....Well....i think that was the best part, but probs cause i cant remember them all...When you and Eric butted heads...that was funny to watch too....you just gotta know how to deal with him nilsen..he really is a nice guy in my opinion...he just has strong views...i think. OMG....SNL skits were awesome too....they were hilarious. The whole learning process was fun too...you know...real interesting stuff...cant forget about that. Mr. Nilsen, you know when i really knew that you were an awesome teacher...its like any other teacher...you know that when theres a sub...and you wish that your teacher was here instead of the sub...that your teacher is truly awesome. Although we may not agree exactly on your group of "friends" ( i think you know what im talking about)....i can handle it...only issue is....cathleen and shannon, might never be able to....ever. Actually, theres no might about it...they NEVER will. So, i would like to end this note/blog on this: you have inspired me to become a better writer and through your expert advice and overall excellency...i will achieve my dream....and no...i swear...im not a suck up....hahaha ;-)

Texting.....Thank You Cathleen..... AND STUPID PEOPLE.....

Ok, there is so much to say on this topic, that i am really not sure where to start.... Ok, first of all....texting has its issues. When you are friends with someone and all you do is text, it may lead to you/or them having what we like to call a crush.....bad bad thing. Its never good. Sometimes...people get the wrong idea over text message cause they cant hear the exact way you are saying something and then it can create this awkwardness between the two people because on thought there was a relationship and the other didnt....so thats a fail....My other issue with texting is.....once you text someone constantly all the time and they are suddenly not there and not texting you anymore....you feel wicked lonely....and honestly it feels terrible. I know its only texting and that you should get over it but....idk....to go from someone texting you 24/7 to nothing at all....is like a complete sense of lonliness. Also....i have come to find out that you will say a lot of things to someone over text that you would never say to the person face to face.....and that can be a problem....because then the person doesnt get to see the real you and you want them to know the real you. Also, texting can start to hurt your hand too. I feel like sometimes it can ruin relationships as well....because you text the person...instead of hanging out...on the complete opposite end of this i have to say i LOVE TEXTING.....sometimes, when you just want to have a nice conversation with someone but dont want to or CANT (like if your at work or something) call them, its nice to just send a text and see what is up with the person. It also beats having to have a two second convo with someone....pointless and pain in the butt. Theres also just like a thrill you can get with texting....i have absolutely no clue what it is...but its there...i can feel it....its also nice to be able to see how someone who you may not see all the time and wouldnt have a lot to say in a convo is doing. OH AND....sending texts to ireland.....is a gift FROM ABOVE....so much better than calling everytime i have a question.
On to my second point in this. PEOPLE ARE STUPID. absolutely, completely and utterly stupid. I cant stand it....maybe its just dedham high....but it isnt possible for you to have a relationship/friendship with a guy without your every move being questioned....For example....i recently asked this kid who i find to be the nicest, most handsome, and just an all around gentleman and great person, to my prom. WELL.....if i got asked one more time whether i liked him or not...i was gonna kill. Just because i enjoy his company and thought he was a good person to bring...people question it. Now, this kid is really good looking and you know, one day, i honestly dont care when, he will date someone...but when i get asked the question "so, do you like him?" and i say no....and NOBODY believes me it seriously gets me mad....why do i have to like him? cant you just accept the fact that i asked him as a friend to it? OH GOD....THERES A CONCEPT....friends....now, not saying i would be opposed to dating this kid...cause as stated above....hes awesome...but it like WONT be happening and i never expected nor really wanted it. I think the main reason why this gets me so mad is because word travels so quick and then it gets back to the person and it makes it awkward between you two, cause one person thinks the other likes them...but you dont...and god knows i dont need any help being awkward. People are just so irritating...i can be nice to a guy and still only be his friend...it is allowed...and when we get out of high school....hopefully people will grow up and realize this stuff....

Thats all for now......

hahaha shannon <3

Ok, so while i was texting shannon we were talking about how much we love food...its an issue. so we were both saying how we should make a blog on food because its soo good. Hahaha. We have come to the conclusion that food should be a big part of everyones life. You have to eat food to live, therefore, in shannon's words....food=life. Its a done deal. hahaha. Apart from the fact of the way it tastes....moving on from that.....I think it is a good thing to try all different types of food. I think it opens up your options and gets you to try new things and other peoples way of life. To know about a certain cultures food is to know a lot about that culture. So not only does it taste good, but eating can also be a learning experience.... I would write a blog about this....hahah <3

Being Awkward....

hahaha...ok, so for those of you who know me, i have often been called awkward or the person who can really make a situation awkward very easily. Its not my fault. Clearly, i dont mean to make a situation like that because then you look back and think, man if i didnt just make that awkward, something could have happened. But, i do it and i cant help it. The only good thing that can come from it is the fact that your friends can look back on it and be like remember that time.....so its a good memory, but for me...sometimes..its a memory of something i could have handled better. But anyway, there is one thing i hate. I hate when people say...well that was awkward...when in no way, shape or form was the situation awkward...it was never awkward, never will be awkward, not possible..absolutely not. It really just gets me annoyed cause im like no...stop...think about things before you open your mouth. Maybe its just me, but sometimes i feel like people just overuse the word awkward...and then they sound stupid.

People

Ok, some people do not know how to be decent. One such example of this I find is some people's blatant disregard for other peoples feelings. When you are on a team in a school and there is only one team, i feel that it is all varsity and that if you play in some of the games....you should get a letter because you put in the effort to the team the whole time through practices and being at games. However some people feel that it is ok to let certain players go to banquets and not give them a varsity letter with no prior warning so they are sitting there feeling like absolute and complete fools. It is just such a wrong thing to do. If that was me, i would cry....absolutely break down and cry. Something that i have dedicated my past 2-3 months on and I dont even get any credit for it? absolutely not. That would be my last year on the team. And although this may seem a little harsh i just feel like it would have been common decency to let these girls know before that they were not getting a letter so they wouldnt get their hopes up. And....they wouldnt of had to sit through about a 3 hour banquet for no reason, to not even be recognized....it just wasnt fair.