I just need a vacation.

You know what really makes me angry...its how people change. Now, i have never had an issue with this before. When people used to say it id be like nooo what are you talking about? people dont really change. i think your nuts. But after this year...im starting to rethink everything. You have this really great kid who is so nice to you....then sometimes he treats you badly and you let him away with it but then you are like wait...why did i do that? if it was anyone else...i would be so mad. then you have this other awesome kid...who is just basically awesome...but then people make way to much of him and you are like omg everyone shut up...then you start to get annoyed with the person because they change and conform to their new "image" and you are like wow....please stop changing...go back to the person you were...because that is the person who was awesome to know. Then you have the best friends who decide to break your heart and leave you out of their lives. They promise they will never do it but they do. It makes you think back to the way your life used to be and how happy you all used to be together and then all of a sudden people start to pull away from the group. I understand you have to have a certain level of patience because it cant always be just four people all the time...but it comes to a certain time that when they are ignoring you and blatantly leaving you out of things...you have to say something and you have to be prepared almost for that person to not want your friendship anymore but you need to keep your dignity and not be walked all over. Its a terrible thing to say but sometimes the people you rely on the most, let you down. and it sucks....dont ever let someone become your priority when you are only an option for them...and lately thats the way i have been feeling...all the time...its terrible and i wish people would understand how i felt. Just get me out of this frigen country.